I have wanted to reboot my blog, Patreon and online presence in general for a very long time. I started but got a bit lost trying to do everything at once. Then I stepped back to re-think what I was doing.
I am simply too busy with a full-time job and studying for the classes I’m taking in programming to do all the things I want to do. Of course, struggling with stress already, it didn’t help that I added more stuff like re-writing old novels, continuing to write new stories, rebooting my online presence and all that to an already complicated life.
I have decided to focus on one thing at a time and move on from there. I hope to have more time within the next years as I will finish the rest of my classes and then officially get my new degree from the vocational school I am attending. I also hope to get a home and that it will be closer to work (I currently spend between 3 and 4 hours every day commuting to work or school, but they are difficult to use productively because there’s a lot of people and I have to change between trains and busses to get where I need to go), either by moving or when I get a new job being more careful in choosing where that job is. My contract at work ends in one year, so it’ll soon be time to start looking for work again – which no doubt will also demand a lot of time and effort.
I am going to focus on my blog and my online presence, because it’s already out there and none of my fiction is so far. Once I have more time, I will start adding my fictional work on Patreon, but for now I will wait. I have written A LOT and not done anything with it simply because I couldn’t stop entirely (even when struggling with writers block, I wasn’t able to stop entirely and I feel that’s probably quite normal).
Sorting through it all has been a lot more difficult than I initially thought, because I basically wrote notes on random pieces of paper, old envelopes or whatever was at hand and put it all in folders and all the folders in boxes, on shelves and in drawers – only the pieces of paper didn’t stay in their folders and everything somehow got mixed. Of course, I’ve written full novels on pc, but they are about 5-10 years old because I haven’t finished anything since I started my current job and started taking classes. I’ve just not had the time or energy to do so.
When it comes to all the online social networks stuff, I was never really interested in it. I know some people are always online, but I have really been more the opposite type – always offline. I struggled with being active on some of the different platforms, but honestly most of the time I just forget. Giving a like or a repost or something is quickly done while I commute, but anything else demands more of me and I always think “I’ll do that in a moment” and then I forget.
I want to try and do better, though. I always want to post more regularly again, like back before I started this new career path, so that’s going to be what I will focus on in the near future.
What happens after that, especially next year when I finish all these stressful things I need to survive right now… Well, we’ll see.
I hope to spend more of my time on this, because what is life without all the things that makes us happy?Â
