My Life These Days (2021)

My Life These Days – August

Originally my updates were intended to only be about new features or changes to my blog, but over time it has changed into something else – something more like me discussing my life and how it affects my work. So, after some consideration, I decided it was time to give these posts a different name and I have recently added a new category to my blog; My Life These Days.

Last month was the first time I tried it out and I must admit I like it better. I am not sure I would be able to only discuss changes to my blog, because my life is really what affects this blog more than anything. I don’t work consistently, but rather in bursts of productivity in between periods of nothingness. It’s not that I don’t want to write, but simply that life is life – I need to work and try to make money like everyone else if I want to survive.

I write when I have the time, but honestly, sometimes when I have time, I am too exhausted from life to do anything but rest in alone – preferably in nature with a book and a cup of coffee.

Life is difficult for many of us because society rarely accepts our limitations because they are often different from neurotypical people’s limitations. Society is structured for the majority, not the minority and I don’t really mind. I just wish they would respect our limitations as well. I think there should be plenty of room for all of us.

So, when life is too much, I end up simple surviving every day and everything I love and enjoy becomes meaningless. All I do is get through the days until I feel better. I don’t have the option to take a few days off and get better, but hopefully one day I will be able to free myself from being so very dependent on others.

Depending on others isn’t bad, it’s just not good to be so dependent on others that we have to suppress ourselves to survive. I am the one who created this situation, I know that and therefore I shall also be the one to free myself from it.

So, until I get more freedom to live as I choose, my work on this blog is tied together with my everyday life. Actually, I think it might always be like that since this blog is basically my life and my experiences. In any case, I think this new name fits this type of post better than just “update” because it really isn’t just about updates to my blog – it’s about my life and my work on this blog.

Also, I didn’t have a lot of time to write recently because I started school again.

I need four months of school before I start my apprenticeship, so these days I have to prioritise that. I wish I could write more, but hopefully I will have more time once I get used to my new routine. These days I am very tired all the time, in part because I am meeting a lot of new people, but in part also because I am learning a lot of new things.

Once I get used to everything I will make a new writing schedule and get things uploaded regularly.

Kai

I graduated my masters in 2017 with a major in Japanese studies and a minor in international relations. Since my graduation I have focused on figuring out who I am, because I was diagnosed with Asperger's (Autism Spectrum Disorder) and it made me rethink my life and allowed me to understand myself better. Because I have always been passionate about writing, I decided to blog about my life in the hope that it can increase autism awareness.

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